goodbye to 2009

再过十分钟就是2010年了。

2009 年的我们，

都忙着拼~

为spm而拼....

今年,

可说是我一直以来最担心的一年，

最可怕的一年....

但从环境的改变，

我学会了不少东西....

仔细的回想起，

09 年，

在我个人的生活里,

的确发生了不少喜，怒，哀，乐的事...

喜 - 和朋友一起拼的日子

怒 - 秘密

哀 - 失去生命中最爱的家属

乐 -我学会了许多以前不明白的事

2010 年，

我要更加油~

我要做我自己~

我要更坚强~

我相信....

我一直以来在烦着的事，

终有一天会解决。

不管再怎么艰难，

不管要我付出什么，

我....

也许会走了一大圈的路，

但....

终有一天，

我还是会到达目的地的~

加油！

祝爸爸有多点时间休息，

烦恼少少~

祝妈咪烦恼也少少

脾气也变好一点。

祝妹妹spm加油咯~

还有祝弟弟

学业继续的进步！

还有祝身边的朋友们，

事事顺利咯

我咧，

祝我......

很多....

讲不完....

最重要的是，

要学习成长！

happy new year ^.^

say yes & no to myself

stop to watch movie ~

as i cant get any benefit after spend my time and money in the cinema~

yes-{i've made it }

stop to sing k and hanging around with friends~

as my money will flow like running water...

yes-{i've made it since few months ago}

stop to step into those shops that would drive me crazy~

as i will be crazy until i dunno what am i doing ....

no T.T {i cant make it}

but from now on i must do it !

stop to buy all the things that are useless~

as they could not bring any benefit to me...

as i will not regret someday...

no-{but i will try to make it}

stop to ask daddy to reload for me every week~

as sms just like giving money to ppl...

use dad's money to give others without any reason....

what benefit u can get??

yes-{i didnt try it before...}

but start from 2day,

i have to make it ~

yes-sms when i need it indeed...

sms and chatting with somebody else so that i can improve myself in something...

and not talk nonsense with ppl...

stop to buy drinks when having my lunch/dinner~

as i have bring my own drink what...

yes-{i've made it since the 1st day i worked}

stop my jealousy to other ppl who are rich~

ppl who like to tell you what their lovers ,

what their parents did for them ....

as i am who i am...

i am not them...

yes-{i've made it since before}

buy something to daddy and mummy when i get my 1st paid...

or bring them to somewhere to eat ...

who cares if it's only a small lunchroom...

yes-{i wish to do it so someday}

these are the promises i've made to ah loke ~

i should learn more from her ...

although she is younger than me ...

*gambateh to myself!*

i can make it !

刚从笃雄同工和他三个儿子的追思礼拜回来...

我们都会问

为什么为什么？？

为什么上帝要这样的把他们带回去

就连笃雄的家人，亲戚朋友...

教会的弟兄姐妹，

甚至是牧师，

都难以接受这事实，

都不明白....

刚才宝金牧师所分享的，

教导了我们许多的功课。

笃雄同工和他三个儿子，

只不过是搬了家，

我们在这世上只不过暂时性的...

将来有一天,

不管你喜不喜欢，

都得离开....

我们在这里只不过是个旅客....

要知道，

重要的并不是你存活在这世上能多久，

重要的是你的生命是否是永生的呢？

今天你在追求着什么？

名牌物品？

还是永恒的生命呢？

你可能很有钱，

非常在乎物质享受...

但这些东西真得这么好炫耀吗？

朋友常在我面前炫耀自己，

考取得成绩，

父母买的名牌衣还是最新款的电话等等.....

我从来都不会去羡慕~

因为我总觉得....

这更本没什么大不了！

因为当你已离开这世上，

这些东西在天国只不过是一粒屎~！

笃雄同工离开了我们，

就如许多弟兄姐妹说的，

他们都梦见笃雄和三个孩子在车祸现场时，

有六位天使把他们带到天家去了。

而他们脸上却带着喜乐的笑容....

回到主的怀里....

安息吧~

你虽然离开了我们，

但你那为主而活的精神....

用在我们当中.....

life is so fake

i really don understand....

really don understand....!!!

don understand~!!!

God ,

i really don understand...

why ?

why du xiong and his family will faced such an adversity ?

i couldn't believe it...

and i really counldn't understand.......

incredible...

it was so cruel ~!!!

life is so fake !!!!!

we really cant predict what will happen to us next day...

next minute...

or even next second...

笃雄同工& his 3 sons ....

rest in peace...........

i wish i can leave here .....

i wish to leave everybody....

i wish i have no friend since before....

everything are so fake~!

Damn it !

i really don like !!!!

really cant accept u said me like that ...!

not because i m not admit myself as what u said...

selfish??

am i selfish??

because i didnt think about sis?

but do u think b4....

u don even know my decision....

u don even know what am i thinking now....

u don even know what i've planned....

n u even dunno what is going on....!

not because of i don1 to tell u....

because we have nothing can discuss...

everything start with a discussion....

but end with my tears....

i really dont like this type of feeling !!!!

can u listen 2 me ??

even though just 1 minute....

1 minute....

it's enough for me....

can we discuss...??

can u listen 2 me...??

i really hope u can understand me...

i am who i am ...~!!!

i am wei yen !!!

i am your daughter!!!

i have my own path to go ~!!!!

not necessary i must follow what other ppl doing...

not necessary i must listen to u all the time...

that's my future !!!!!!

thx my daddy very much...

for giving me some opinions...

hmm thx...

how gud if i can get ur sign n mum's sign....XD...

{give me a chance to talk ....}

2day went century mahkota hotel for swimming ...

but cant swim there T.T lol...

with ngoh n her bf,

yiting v her bf ,

emily n her sis

n my sis ^.^

lol...8 ppl in a small myvi >.<

it's the 1st time so many people sitted inside the car ~

luckily sis didnt tell my mum...

if not she will kill me >.<''

aft that went dp find white shirt lor...

i need it when work...

2ml have to work ady lor ~

haiz i don1 work

but i 1 money ~~~~

but stay at home also kinda boring lah...

nothing to do at home except sleeping and watching tv~

anyway ,

hope i enjoy the work lah >.<

so sad i cant go the BBQ with friends~

arrrhhhhh.......

sorry ya~

forgive me plz...

century hotel- my sis n i

sometimes....

i really behtahan those who like to boast..

yes ,

i will listen u boasting there...

i will give u comments...

but don't u feel u're too over ady??

if u proud of urself tats good ,

y must declare to everybody ??

y must let everybody know who u r?

sometimes i really cant pretend ...

sometimes i really want to let u know i ady fed up!

but i just want to give u face only ~

don1 to hurt u ...

well ,

i just act as nothing happen...

its ok if that is your way to communicate with me...

we will wait n see~~

continue ss ....

i listen....

listen....

n listen...

hope someday...

u'll stop it~

so that my ears can rest...

peacefully ...

stupid choice in life

stupid accounts ~!!!

what the f***~!!!!

paper 2 so hard ~!!!!!

terrible !!!!!!!

Alan teacher said it was form6 standard ....

who set this question one??!

gonna throw eggs on u ~!!!

throw shoes n whatever on u ~!!!!!

which siao zabo or siao dabo set 1???

so sad ~!!!!!!!

my life will be miserable because of this stupid subject~!

one of the stupid choice in my life : take accounts !!!

stupid ~!!!!!!

i hate u !!!accounts !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

n those siao zabo n siao dabo !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i know it passed ady ,

think so much also useless !

but i just cant stop my mind to think about it !

i've tried my best ,

but it was not enough at all !!!!!

cant imagine the results @.@

God bless me plz....T.T

love me plz...

Bio ~!

i Love U ~!

so ,

can u love me too??

although i'm not deserve for u to love ~

just love me until 2ml ...3.30pm ok??

just love me for 1 day k?

just live in my brain for 15 hours can ?

after 2ml u can leave me ~

hard work paid off....

i don't even believe this ~!!!!

sometimes...

it depends on luck...

but nvm ,

i enjoy the process ~

my dear bio ,

love me plz.....

i left 5 more subjects ~

wuuuu hoooo....

nxweek will be the damn suffer week ~

bio ,

continue by account,

rest 1 day then phy ....

arrr~~!!!

for the last 6 subjects...

i have no comment~

i've did what should i do...

juz leave everything to God...

addmaths paper 2 !!!!

everybody also said that....

this year very hard ar~!!

Damn challenging ar ~!!!

what the ......~!

well , i've done everything i can~

don't think about it ady~

臭addmaths ~!!!plz get out from my life~!!

if phy,acc n bio also like that,

haizzzz....

jump longkang lah ~~~>.<

as i sit beside the door only,

just jump lor...

all the best ~!

GoGoGo ~!!!!!!

忍忍忍！！

ns i get the 2nd or 3rd batch leh ~~~

adoi...!

is it a good news or bad news ??

for me ,

nothing is good news anymore~!

except my name can be cancelled in their list ~

no more liu wei yen in ur list ~! plzzzzzzzz T.T

hope this 1 month can pass quickly~!

i really hate this type of life ~

is it any difference btw this type of life with the hell's life?

no difference at all ~!!

i know the day will come and will pass...

tq , mr.oh...

i really feel more better after listened to your words..

yup, i don have to be perfect...

result is not the most important thing in the world...

it is all about trying and growing~

try my best as much as i can ~

and that's all...

God will do the rest rite?

sorry for those who send the countdown msg for me...

left few hours some more...

yesterday night i was crying n wreaking for ntg ~

crazy ~! childish~！sot ~!!

childish~!crying in the phone~！

so xia shui~>.<

tats not me who hate "ham bao ~!"

and yet received so many countdown msg ~goshh~~~

tomorrow...

all the best....

i must eat as much as i can ~!

thx sir,

thx one gold.

thx ling ^^

all the best to all my friends ~!

这两天你都会找我聊天~

虽然只是一下子而已。

真的很surprise~

昨天是我在今年里第二次收到你的信息~

不好意思哦~

嗯~....

不是不让你来我的家....

因为有人在身边我读不到书~>.<

还好你有他陪你~

昨天突然间一封

"i miss you "

我还以为你发错呢~！

谢谢你的想念....

就算只有那一瞬间....

我也高兴了~

至少....

你还会记得....

去年...

那个坐在你隔壁的我~

那个现在你已经没什么跟她说话的我~

那个你很少想到的我~

有些事，

不只是我一个人有这样的想法

就连他们也和我一样，

有着同样的想法~

anyway~

祝你幸福 ^.^

gud luck in spm ~

don't find me anymore....
i won't find u anymore too...

4get about me...
i'll 4get about u too...

i'm so sorry for all the unconvenience that i had brought 2 u...
sorry....

n thx for everything...
everything....

too much to say...

4get about me...
dont sms me anymore...
i'll change my no ASAp...

i hope this is the right decision...
i have no choice~

there's nothing else i can say...

be happy...

take care~
happy to noe u this fren...
bye#

juz now suddenly received my son's call...
hmm...long time didnt chat v him ady lor...
n long time didnt c him ady ~
kinda miss him >.<
last time when he backed melaka oso didnt find him ...
hmm...aft spm only go kl shopping n find him lor ...~
n i wanna visit his church >.<

juz chatted awhile n he asked how m i now ...
well,i'm still ok~
just,kinda bz recently ...
n he told me my voice changed ady wor...
my voice is so thin now.....
(har???ei hello...~voice thin??>.<>
n asked me where 2 study nxtime ...
(i havent think of that neh >.<)

oh...
most important thing is...
he advised me 2 believed in God n trust Him...
believe that Father God will change everything...
pray more n spend some times v God....
we all r different bcuz we have the greater n worthy Father v us ~!

Father God ,
i don1 go ns lah....
i m worry for the coming spm....
n i do really scare it ~!
i m anti-exam..~!
i really don hav confident 2 myself...
but leave all the burden to you...
n believe that wat u did 2 my son ,
u'll do 2 me oso ~...
yea...
praise Lord....


oh ya ,
Happy Birthday 2 my lovely daddy ~^.^
Daddy i luv u ~ !


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